i hope the films i make are as good as this movie

im trying to build an opus because i feel very inadequate with only one post. so i am going to post a movie trailer of The Fall ( Lee Pace, Catinca Untaru) , which is not the best movie I have ever seen, yet there is something about it that is absolutely fascinating & magical. not to sound cliche. i like the idea of a made-up story coming to life like that- it seems so rare. the colors are vivid and the music (especially Symphony No.7 in A major) adds a great emotion meter to it. hah, emotion meter.

i hate how real life isn't as sad & as beautiful as film. things are much better when they are cut, edited, and saturated (and played by symmetrical-faced actors). this is the worst part about watching movies: when you walk out of the theater feeling like shit. you sit and watch this great film about such and such with a dramatic/horrible/happy/tear-jerking story and their ending comes under two hours. their lives could be so tragic but the actors/directors make it seem so glorious. i walk out of there thinking existential thoughts- the film story never happened, life is never that good, life will never be that beautiful or tragic. what is the point of everything if life can never live up to my (your, our) expectations? so you see what i mean. my mind starts racing and i get depressed for a week until the movie's effect has dulled.

this is the reason why i want to make films- if i somehow make my own scraps of memories & stories more beautiful, maybe i will be ok with living a mediocre life.

if you have any insights on this, let me know.

and now, without further ado;